"Stephanie's Obsessed Opinion"
Posted for my friend Stephanie
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Unless there were ones that were deleted, this is my only comment in the blog entry "The Cancer Has Gone South" from June 18,2007. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
"Ann Marie, it will do me no good to type up this comment but I will do it because I don't want to disappoint you. SK does not deserve this type of abuse you are giving him.None of them,nor myself or my husband have posted anything negative about you since right after your banning. You say we have, but I know we haven't,so I ask you to provide links to discussions directed toward you in the last 3 weeks.It was not a good idea what was done back then,posting discussions about you being banned,and then why you were banned.It was wrong,but then what you have done for the past few months is wrong also. It matters no more what proof anyone has of anything.You and I both know that you were planning with SteveW to get my friends off of Mylot long before my husband and I came into the picture.I have emails where you admit that.I also have emails proving that you came to us when we had problems with Max.My husband and I have never denied that we were mad and felt the same way you did back then because of how Max attacked us.We were new to the forum scene and didn't really understand how to feel and react.You however,were not new to the forums.You were the one who kept telling and sending us information about Max and Mylotbites.Never did we go there until I was banned from Mylot. When I was banned you told me that it was "their" fault,that they had vowed at Bites to get me banned.I foolishly believed you.It was only because of what you told me that I asked people who I thought were friends to help get me reinstated and shared pages from Bites.Pages that I had gotten from you.It doesn't matter if you went there yourself and obtained what you sent me, or if it was done by someone else, such as your son, or BrendaLee, or maybe another user at Mylot who was a spy for you that you never wanted to tell me about.God knows you tried to get me to go to Bites and spy but I never did until I thought I had been banned because of them.I admit that I had quite a bit of anger and my pride had been hurt by what I thought "they" were doing to me and other users. After my falling out with Mary Beth and the way you were with her in emails, I stopped to think about things.I began to realize that you weren't who I thought you were.Reading how nasty you were in emails to Mary Beth, someone you didn't even know, made me question you.In all the things she called me in emails I came nowhere close to being as vulgar as you did toward her.Between that and you becoming less in touch with me, I began to wonder if you were really my friend.I believe you sensed my uncertainty so you began to sabotage me. I knew in my heart that the things you were doing were wrong, the things I was doing was wrong.It truly bothered me that you would lie to "them" and say you were sorry and wanted to be friends, while all the time still planning their demise from Mylot. Regardless of how any of them ever treated other users at Mylot, it gave none of us the right to behave the way we did.I began to pay closer attention to them and realized things about them that you could never comprehend.I also took a deeper look at you and realized how two faced you were.I honestly believe you suffer from a split personality disorder.So many times between emails and chat you went between being very well educated and sensitive to down right nasty and not expressing yourself very well with words.I can still see that even today through your blogs and your new material at Mylot.Your intelligence and sensitivity levels bounce all over the place. Royal,you claim that I was emailing you like a crazy person when I was trying to get back on Mylot.I emailed a lot of people,but I only sent a few emails,and was very clear from the get go that I did not want to be a bother to anyone.If anyone did not want to be involved it would not change my feelings toward them as a friend.Everything that I sent to you or anyone else that came from Bites had been obtained by me through Ann Marie.You claim that I was emailing you several times a day sometimes.It's funny how you kept emailing me back.I doubt very much that I emailed you several times a day,except perhaps at the point in time where YOU couldn't log into your account and were frantic.Of course you blamed my friends.I never dropped you like a rock until I decided that I couldn't live with myself anymore knowing what I knew, and, regardless of sharing negative things from myself, I chose to share emails I had concerning the whole situation.When Ann Marie got banned because those emails stated that she had had another account at one time and flat out lied it was her cousin,then you got all upset and I knew at that point that I would not be someone you would want as a friend anymore since it was I who exposed Ann Marie.I never did it to get my account back.I had long ago accepted that I would never get it back.I was not as obsessed as you make me out to be.You, however, were quite obsessed when you couldn't log into your account for about a week.Except to email someone back,I think in total I sent out no more than six emails about my banning.I always tried to be courteous and if I felt anyone didn't want to be involved or if they never emailed me back after the first couple of times I didn't bother them anymore.Regardless of whether I was obsessed about my account,it does not change the facts of how Ann Marie was on a mission against my friends long before I ever came around.It does not change the facts that she tried to befriend them while stabbing them in the back.It does not change the facts that she has not let this situation be in the past and is obsessed with vengeance. To my knowledge, none of us have done any discussions involving any of you until we found out that the group of you were starting things again.All of the flower and bug discussions that have been started in response to the crap that all of you are throwing out there are only evident to yourselves as to the true meaning.At least they were done in a vague sense, while what some of you put out there is plain out name calling. I have nothing else to express to any of you because I know what the truth is, I have proof of it all, and I honestly don't believe that there will ever be enough people who ever read this blog that will effect me to the point of being harmful.I hope that someday all of you can find peace within yourselves and move on from the past.Vengeance is a dish best served cold,and if you keep on with your vengeance,that is how you will end up,as a cold,heartless,bitter person.Some of you are already closer to that than others.All of you just need to go on with your lives,enjoy your friendships with each other, leave all of us to enjoy our friendships, and stop with the "poor me", I have all this proof, I have to start this blog or that discussion, and thinking that behaving this way will accomplish anything.I have never been hateful to any of you.Even when Ann Marie emailed me trying to say she knew why I was banned and I'd never get my account back (funny she should know something like that), I never called her names.I was not happy with her turning things around on me,and I was quite expressive with my anger at being told I was the one who started this and wouldn't let it go, but I did not resort to name calling.Even recently when she emailed my daughter and then me, being quite disrespectful,I showed nothing hateful in return. Please move on with your lives. I feel very sorry for all of you." June 20, 2007 9:41 AM ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Of course I never received any proof of discussions at Mylot or anything anywhere that would explain Ann Marie's need to keep her blog attacks going toward us. In all this time Ann Marie has done nothing but make accusations toward me of altering her emails and lying about her true intentions. She has never proven anything to the contrary. Out of all the people that I emailed in hopes of getting my account reinstated at Mylot so many months ago, only two or three people turned things around that I was obsessive and only "needed" them when there was hope of me getting my account back. Of course those two or three people are ones that are still associated with Ann Marie today. They tried to make it sound like I quit being their friend when they couldn't help me anymore. The fact is, once I realized what was really going on, and ceased association with Ann Marie, I knew that since those women had known her longer online than I had, there was no point in trying to remain friends with them. Through their rough times I emailed them asking how things were, sent ecards, etc. They didn't show that kind of friendship to me. After all this time and how they still back her up, it's obvious that to have tried to remain friends with them would have been suicide. They follow each other all over the internet, trying to rid the online world of people like me and my friends, while in the process they behave just as badly, if not worse. This comment from me in the blog entry mentioned was my first one since the very first blog entry, "Internet Cancers". If anyone feels the desire to, go and read the comments for that blog entry, and you will see that I was never out of line. Anything I expressed, even my begging and admittance of negative things being me and not my husband, was replied to with sarcasm and accusations from Ann Marie. From my comment in the blog entry "The Cancer Has Gone South" I didn't even come back to reply to anything until the "The Dragon's Blowing Smoke Again" blog. That was only to point out that Ann Marie thought I was Max because his real name is similar to mine. My interaction in her whole blog, even when being made mention of, was very little. The most I have been involved has been recently, when it became clear that either Ann Marie or someone she put up to it came back to Mylot to start trouble again going after Max. Then finding out about Ann Marie posting in her "son's" Loungeact account sparked my involvement at this time even more. The point is, no matter how little I came to this blog, she made mention of me and my husband more times than it was necessary. So who is it that won't let things go?This is my take on Ann Marie, her friends, and their on going effort to control and belittle me and my friends.